~YouAreMyMuse

Okay so I worked from 3:15-8:30 straight, no break. Not much but I mean hey I was on my feet the entire time. Then after work I kissed Immanuel on the cheek. (Haha, I started by kissing his apron...sigh long story and I'm gonna say this..hey I never said I didn't warn you...I put lipstick on him and Pablo and then he wiped it off with his apron so he showed me at work where it still was and I kissed it again, then he pointed to his cheek ((he doesn't speak much english)) and so I kissed him, oops...no fraternizing with the employees, I got really red when John found out but I could tell he didn't care cuz he pointed to Pablo and was like "You did that? Naughty boy you shouldn't be kissing other boys..hah) Then I waited for Rachel, took medicine, got Rebekah then went off to stupid lock in that cost me 20 flippin dollars...that's almost 4 hours of work for me...ugh!. So anyways, I make a fool of myself RIGHT away, and no one recognizes me, or says hello. But I don't care, I have my Rebekah with me, so all else is fine. Then Tyler walks away (big embaressment) and I go and say hello to Ian who is the only one who is one of the 3 who actually acknowledge me for a human being the entire night. And being good 'ol Ian he lets me hug him (I went straight to the lock in no shower no clean clothes nothing, so I smell like Italian food) and he asks me how I am and doesn't kick me out of the sound booth...cuz Ian is just really nice like that...ya know. Then I go back, make a bigger fool of myself, ya know, cuz that's what I do best. Then I go to the bathroom because I took the wrong medication and I've completely gone down the drain. I'm really low, and I like start realizes the reason why I was being stupid is because of the medicine I took so I hit rock bottom. Then I see Richard...yeah Richard Kreuser and I haven't gotten along since hmm Green Lake...when Ben was like what 17? Haha, that's 3 years ago...only reason why I can remember is me and Rebekah went on the golf cart with him and Theresa and he wanted to drive and he was too young! HAHA. Sorry carried away. So anyways I go into the bathroom stare at myself in the mirror and realize the huge fool I am, get ready to cry, then all these black girls storming in, so I wipe off all my makeup and go and sit next to Richard. Rebekah comes to look for me and asks if I'm okay and I was actually having fun talking to Richard even though he's a lot younger than me, and I just kinda wanted her to go away so I could just kinda sulk and so she asks if I'm upset at her and I told her I wasn't it was Rachel, just so she would go away. So then she goes and talks to some kid and Rachel starts annoying her so she tells her I was mad at her. So of course RACHEL has to come and annoy me. By then I've put on Martin Ledger's kick butt sport coat thing which is...hmm I don't like 10 sizes too big? I don't know. And Rachel's asking me all this stuff then Rebekah and this kid Kyle come and Rebekah says this, "Omg that kid is so..." then she realizes that Kyle is behind her so she kinda walks by me and is telling me that Kyle's friend is gorgeous (Kylehas a thing for Rebekah ::Rolls eyes:: NO CHANCE BUDDY! sorry I'm just mean.) Anyways and Kyle calls me over and asks me what she says, because he thought she would by chance be talking about him but she's talking about his friend, which sad cuz his friend doesn't really want to have anything to do with her (sorry I'm saying all this Rebekah) Then Richard, Kyle, and me just kinda sulk and sit watching Last October's Equipment so no one takes anything. Luckily I didn't get my head bashed in for taking Martin's jacket And then Richard poors water on my head. And I'm so completely out of it I don't even notice then I just say, while looking straight forward "You realize this isn't my jacket, and I haven't even asked him if I could wear it?" And Kyle says, "Dude, it isn't even soaking in, it''s just kinda rolling off" So I took off my shirt (I had an undershirt on, don't get your pannies in a bunch) and dried it a bit then put it back on. So then Richard wants to use my phone so he goes to call someone and they're doing some lame butt countdown and at the end, because I'm just happy I just say "Happy f*cking new year" And I kiss the glass in the window. Then I guess Richard spit on Rebekah all this water, which I didn't know cuz I was just sitting behind all the equipment of Last October cuz I didn't really want to be by anyone...and she goes into the bathroom and then all the guys go into the guys bathroom and I'm like bah! Cuz I don't understand why, so I go in there with them, (yes men's bathroom) and then Richard locks me in the stall with him...for reasons unknown to any of you. And I tried to get out but my friend Sean came in and he was like dude Tori this security guard that's a chick or something saw you go in and she asked me why you went in and I told her you were a guy...haha, I realized I had an oversized jacket, black hair and baggy plaid pants so I can see why I would look like a guy haha. So then Sean was nice enough to tell me when she was gone. So I ran out the door and this guy caught me and he was like "What were you doing in the guys bathroom?" And I told him my friends went in there and I knew no one else did so I was joking with them. Totally believed me, completely naive. Well not naive just trusting. Anyways woah, mom just took off her robe andshe's naked...::scarred for life:: So whatever, I'm just walking around with Richard doing nothing then I followed Sean around being all sad and mopey and stupid as usual. Completely calmed down so I can't make any bigger of a fool of myself. Then listened to Last October, they dedicated Summer for me, cuz I love the song...after they sang it, haha, cuz I promoted them. It was nice of them to do that. Then played pool with this cool chick Stephanie and I sucked, yes I need to start playing more often. I need a teacher, haha. Anyways, (I say anyways a lot) I just kinda moped even more, but then I saw Brannon who I haven't seen in about 4 or 5 months. And he was one of the people who acknowledged me as a human being. Because he told me that he was really hoping I was going to come. And he was actually looking forward to hopefully see me. That made me want to cry even more....just because...I don't know when I don't take my pills I get in this mopey sad mood, where if anyone says anything nice to me, I want to cry because...well I don't know...whatever. Anyways so then we watched With Heaven In Mind, and Christian I think it is? He plays guitar, he had this high pitched sound the name for it has completely gone from my mind. But yeah it felt like an arrow straight through my ear to my brain. And it was funny cuz Tyler almost hit the bass player so many times, I couldn't help but laugh. And John Born Free was amazing. I definitely give him major props for that...seriously, you are talented John. (I still think you're a loser...haha jk i love you haha) So anyways then Rebekah was really upset...oh yeah beforehand Richard spit water in her face, and she started crying, he did it 3 or 4 times, which was completely bogus. But anyways, I didn't see it, so I saw her run in the bathroom and Melissa and Katelyn tell me she's crying so I'm upset cuz I don't know what happened. Only that Richard poured water on her, so I thought she was overreacting, so I go in there and she's crying and Rachel is trying to comfort her. And I tell her that it's not a big flippin deal it's just water, and he did it to me, you need to get over it. And she got really mad and I could tell she wanted to slap me, so I left, so she was pissed at me the whole night. I didn't later figure out the truth of what really hapened from Richard himself, and then I made him go up to her and apologize, but she didn't know that that was me...so she was upset at me the rest of the night. Anyways I'm gonna skip all the other crap, and then in the beginning Tim Ryssemuss(I know I spelled that wrong..Ryssemus..? yeah) had all these pins, and I saw an Early November one and I asked him if I could wear it, and he said no but I slipped it off him and wore it anyways, and he was like that's cool. So then I was really mellow at the end at 5 am, and I look at his sweater, and practically all his pins are gone, and I'm thinking, I wonder if he got those for Christmas. And I realize people probably took them and aren't goign to give them back. So I look on my sweater to give him his pin and it's not there and tears start rolling down my cheeks because I really want to give it back to him because he's such a nice person and he was nice enough to let me wear it and now I couldn't find it. And I was like oh my god tim I'm so sorry I can't find it. And I'm like panicking over a 1.50 pin. And he keeps telling me it's all right. And I kinda snapped at him :-/ And said it wasn't all right and I kept telling him I would buy him new ones. And he kept telling me it was okay and then he gave me a hug goodbye then later said goodbye to me outside. I swear that kid is going to be the death of me just because he's so nice. So yeah...uhmm I have another entry I'm writing as well....